Hello you all dear followers, today im going to explain what anxiety has been for me. Obviously anxiety started long time before I was diagnosed with aspergers, this happened because I was diagnosed at the age of 25, my anxiety has been there I guess since I was a kid. I remember that in school we had swimming class as an official assignment and those Wednesdays I felt very nervous, I could function well but it was still hard to calm down, more because my mother thought I was really young, too young at the age of 6 to undress and put my swimsuit on at school by myself so she help me getting dressed on my bathing suit before I left home, so I had to deal with feeling this weird fabric underneath my school uniform, so everytime I moved slightly anywhere, I remembered today we had swimming class and it was awful because I felt this awful sensation in my stomach, this anguish, later on, pure anxiety.
So yes, I have always been a nervous person but I attribute this to not only my aspergers but to different situations I had to go through since I was very young, all this triggered panic attacks and depression when I was 15 years old, I remember all my friends having their quinceañera´s parties and me just there, terrified, under anxiety pills and antidepressants, it was very bad, I thought I was going to die.
But yeah, thanks to my parents support, it all went good and I went finally through it, the last time I had a intense adrenaline was before my first flight on a plane, and even when the flight had troubles and took way longer to land on Earth, I didn’t´t panic and got to be strong to deal with it the best way possible, so yeah, I learned a lot and I know im stronger than ever before.
I don’t take any medication for my anxiety, but I know that most of my allergies are triggered by anxiety, therefore, I have been trying to control them both the best way I can so far, and I at least know what to expect and what to take if a situation may cause me to feel anxious or nervous.
Another super awesome thing I have found thanks to my psychiatrist is meditation. Some days, anxiety would let me sleep, nowadays, I fall asleep in about 10 / 15 minutes, and if the next day threatens to be overwhelming, then I might have to restart that same sleep meditation over and over for maybe, 4 / 5 times but its better than no sleep at all.
Don´t know if I should take some sort of medication for my nerves, I take vitamin b12 because im a vegan and lack of this vitamin can affect anxiety levels and may even cause a strong damage on the nervous system, it has helped me a lot and perhaps my aspergers is not that harsh so that I need pills everyday, but maybe, just maybe it could make me feel stronger and ready to challenge myself more.
I don’t know any aspie, that´s the reason why I would like to ask you if you are under a certain treatment for anxiety, how it has worked for you, etc. Would really appreciate if you helped me with that, till then, have a nice day and please, keep calm!
anguish, later on, pure anxiety.
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